![]() STONEY: "- he's gonna get five years in prison." "Well what did he do, grandpa?" "He was white, whitewashing rat manure and selling it for rice." (Laughs) Yeah, all that and stuff! Well sure, me, his little crippled up grandson there, he made us all laugh. (Shot changes to Stoney, sitting and talking) "Oscar Connor was indicted, and they think -" Everybody knew Oscar Connor because that's the postmaster, and he says, "Well, I see some news from home this morning." Oh, yeah, I don't know, I must have been nine years old. STONEY V/O: -he named somebody that we all knew, the postmaster in the little town, you know, Coldcamp. (Shot moves to another shelf with a picture of a woman and a man in a wheel chair, panning slowly to show artwork) STONEY V/O: He came to me with the paper, and. (Shot changes to yet another shelf with a terrarium) STONEY V/O: Oh, good gosh, I don't tell that! (Shot moves to a different, similar shelf) INTERVIEWER V/O: What's that your grandfather used to do? That story about the mail man? (Shot fades in to show little statues, cans, and clutter on a shelf) What do you do when your passion is taken from you? Oops…I mean when you have given it away.Stoney Knows How transcript, Stoney Knows How Will this keep progressing and eventually cut the ties I have to every style of artwork that can’t be done with a shaky hand? I don’t know. This is now what I can do and, for as much as I am falling in love with this new style, I can’t easily switch it up anymore. The swirls are so small that I don’t have a problem keeping my hand stable enough to quickly do them and there essentially is no outline through any part of these pieces. The method I now use to create involves tiny spirals and dots with negative spaced lines. I have found a way to work around it in this area but I can’t do anything with any kind of significant linework. My drawing and painting being affected by these twitches and jumps hurts the most though. At 38 I have to learn an entirely new skill if I want to rebuild my career. Even if I wasn’t keen on the idea of working in a shop again or relying on it for all my income, at least the option was there. Tattooing was a trade I thought I could always fall back on. If anyone has ever wondered what it feels like for the sports player that gets injured so badly that he is out of the game for good…This is it. ![]() Tattooing was my career of choice, the one job I have had for at least the last 20 years, that I have been learning and honing for all that time. It is a talent that I am extremely blessed to have and I live by it in almost every aspect of my life. Admitting this is not something that was easy because my art is a huge part of how I define myself. A wrist brace won’t help, nor will exercises, and it affects not only my career but also the leisurely passionate artwork I do on my own time. ![]() There really isn’t anything I can do about it. Honestly, I’m not sure yet how to deal with this. It seems that whatever this is its progressive because, at this point, I can’t draw a smooth line longer than 2 inches at any given time, and even that length is pushing it. It started a little over a year ago with an occasional shake, with one or two fingers moving like someone did a reflex test on them. For me, apparently, I have some nerve damage which has resulted in my hands jumping and twitching more often than I can control. The repercussions come later, sometimes years or decades down the road no matter how you have cleaned up your life. I’ve been told that just because I’m sober, or just because I’m maintaining a healthy weight, doesn’t mean my years of battling these addictions are over yet. ![]() Right now I’m trying to come to terms with the fact that my tattooing days are over.īetween the anorexia and the alcoholism, my body has endured years of damage with few significant visible consequences. Sometimes you don’t know just what has been bartered with until later. Kind of like a trading system in order to feed the MORE at the time. Its said that when in addiction, you don’t lose things, you give them away. ![]()
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